steps in the right direction

After a few really good weeks and being able to do alot more without having to pay for it the next day by feeling terrible, things were really looking up ! Im still doing good, im walking everyday when its not to hot. Being able to finally walk a fair distance has brought me a feeling of more independence and i am super happy about that. Unfortunately there is not a magic pill to make all of my illness vanish even though that sounds nice ! I had a strength testing week where i had a dystonic episode on more than one occasion. I know that i will most likely face this to a extent for most, if not all my life but It was difficult to process. i finally felt normal one minute to being reminded that life is going to test me and make me stronger every so often the next minute. I feel as if life taunts me with the life i fight so hard to work towards but having a taste of what my life will one day be again makes it more worth fighting and pushing for that goal even though its going to be a hard journey. I will always have my struggles that i will have to deal with but life is not meant to easy and it can be more rewarding if you have to work for things in life. i might not know why i have been given this life but im finding little things that are happening because of my illness. I had a rush of goosebumps as i realized an effect that happened to me could only of happened because God planned it. im now talking to a lady in edmonton with a similar health situation as i do. it has brought a sense of comfort knowing that i have someone that can relate to what inm going through and what i have experienced. it also brings me the opportunity to help her in her journey towards finding help in getting her better. life is puzzling and mysterious but i wouldnt have it any other way.
- Hannah